I'm tired.
Yes, physically tired. But more so emotionally.
It's difficult to come to terms with things sometimes. Especially the things that you know will break your heart. The things that you bottle up because you're too afraid you'll offend or hurt someone else.
The things that eat you inside out.
Usually, it's the stupid things. The little things. The things that you feel like you can't bring into the light because they won't be important enough. You will be petty. Foolish. Nobody wants to be foolish.
Nobody.
I feel like nobody lately. Which is absolutely ridiculous and I know that.
I'm not looking for pity. Or advice. I just need to get it all out.
Cause I'm not me anymore. Too much... stuff... eating away at me. I'm just left with a bitter empty shell. And I hate that.
I'm tired of it all. Feeling so unneeded. It's awful. Feeling replaced, invisible. The one people forget to invite or don't want around. My best friends don't even need me. They love me, I know that. But they don't NEED me. I'm not necessary.
And that's okay.
It's just difficult.
