Nothing.

(Warning. This has absolutely nothing to do with anything. I've been in a weird mood lately. So this is completely nonsense and has nothing to do with ANYONE or ANYTHING. Keep that in mind.)

I gave it to you freely.
No thought of the consequence.
It was simple.
But symbolic.
As is everything in this life.
You took it hesitantly.
And we walked on.
The road we traveled was a ribbon of moonlight
And I trembled as we passed along it
Like a leaf in a storm
Fearful of what lay ahead.
We talked of life
The brilliance of cloudless days
The color of lollipops
I danced to the rhythm of a child's laugh
You soaked in the sunlight bouncing off the rim of the ocean
It was easy.
Far easier than I had expected.
The distance between us fell away
Melted into the shimmering past
Fading and blurring then sharpening again
Behind us
But not far.
You held onto it
My gift I had given
Loosely
Not gripping tightly like I would have with yours.
You weren't comfortable holding it
You ached to drop it in the sand
And bury it
But you were aware of me
That I was there
That I was watching you
Studying you.
We walked on
Past the lines and the signs
We fell off the earth
I held onto your hand
Ah, yes the first time
That I had touched you at all
To me, it was everything.
Right then
For one brief moment
I held onto the sun.
And you tolerated me
Let me save you from the sky
That deep immersing space that you could not escape
As the world span around us
Trying to right us again.
I did not breathe
Holding onto you like that
I could not breathe
I was afraid that one small intake
Of the clouded air
Would give me the weight to fall back to the ground.
You looked at me
For the first time
In my eyes
And you saw past their color
Gray.
And you saw me
You gasped in surprise
And dropped my hand
As though it scalded you
And I fell to the earth.
Then we were.
You. So far above me.
And me. Face first on the floor of reality.
The black and white tiles of life.
I sobbed
Wanting you
And you screamed
Wanting anything but me.
I reached for you.
To pull you to me.
Before the sky consumed you
And you were gone forever.
And you looked at me
And put your hand forth
My eyes stretched
As my hopes rang out like bells
Filling all the space of my mind
I reached out for you
And you pulled me close
My own eyes pleaded with me
Don't forget this moment.
And you grabbed my hand
And dropped it back in it.
You rocketed towards the sky
Falling into it's pattern
The onward stretching motions catching you in their spell
And I looked down
In my own open palm
And closed my fingers around it
My heart.
And as I closed my fingers.
There was nothing.